AFRAID OF MYSELF....

U say Iv CHANGED... whn I live the way U always wanted me to LIVE....

U say I dun LOVE U... whn I dun agree to wat U say....

U say dat I dun care about U... whn Im all alone and need U d most....

why is it always bout U, U n only U....

I ChAngEd Myself To LOVe U so dat u start CARING bout me...........

wat is dis GAP between U n ME.... is dis OUR misunderstanding of OUR own understandings....

im AFRAID dat I might BECOME wat i always FEARED....

iM really THANKFUL to U for atleast noticing dis CHANGE.........

EAteN ALIVE

These thoughts will consume me, each poisonous stab,
Takes all I want and all that I have.

Will anyone rescue what cannot be saved?
A person so deadly, so wholly depraved.

My soul is a carcass, no longer shall bleed,
No flesh on these bones- the monsters can’t feed,
They have lived on my sacrament; filled me with lies,
Stolen my innocence; my naïve trusting eyes.

Tested and broken, so completely destroyed,
By things I controlled- times that I could avoid,
I did not have the courage to speak out my mind,
Now I have been eaten by my very own kind.

THE LAST CALL....

I think about life and what a joke it is.

"Friends say their your friends until they get what they want.
Lovers are your lovers until something shinny and new comes along.
God is there but only in a book.
Government is there only to make you a slave."

I have been burned, bruised, betrayed, and broken.
To think about living another day of suffering only to die in the end;
there is no point.

We are all worm food, might as well end the pain sooner than later.




Last call, anybody want to join me for a shot?